How do I keep my mind stayed on Jesus when it seems to be bombarded by all sorts of issues relating to my infertility?
In my waiting, in my trusting, in my hoping, in my believing, there were many occasions where I struggled in my mind in dealing with the constant challenges when trying to conceive (ttc).
However loving your hubby is, mine Michael was very supportive and loving yet it remains a lonely journey for a woman going through ttc.
I know what it was during those months and years of agonising wait for the month to end so that I could conduct a pregnancy test.
The confusing symptoms I suffered that triggered a whole chain reaction that pulls my emotion into a downward spin into depression almost.
I was constantly getting anxious and frustration will set in every now and then from the constant purchase of pregnancy kits to conduct home testing anticipating a pregnancy. These issues engulfed my life that it was almost eating me out until I got to a CROSS ROAD with my God.
Isaiah 26 v 3:
The Lord will keep in perfect peace those whose mind are stayed on HIM.
Mind stayed on Him – Jesus NOT on the Problem!!
But how do I keep my mind stayed on Him you ask when your physical symptoms are so overwhelming?
Romans 8 v 6b
……..the mind controlled by the SPIRIT is life and peace!
Actions I needed to take:
- Keep my mind stayed on God
- Learn the power of prayer
- Allow my mind to be controlled by the Holyspirit
You ask how do I keep my mind focused on Him when in reality my challenges are so physical and tangible?
My response is delve in to the word of God and find His promises on fertility – check out my older blog – God’ s word on fertility. http://www.leen.org.uk/gods-word-on-fertility/
This will give you reassurance and remember the promises of God are yes and amen. I will also suggest find a Jesus believing church and be a part of the body of Christ where you will find encouragement and gain knowledge, revelation and insight through the preaching of the word
The wait with trying to conceive (ttc) is a lonely journey!
But the Lord Jesus our Savior went through a lonely journey at Gethsemane Matthew 26v36-46 . His soul was overwhelmed with sorrow, he even took his closest with Him and asked them to keep watch with Him. But you will recall that the 3 disciples slept off and could not wait with Him. Jesus prayed 3 times, I believe that by the 3rd time He got the victory in His mind to overcome the overwhelming feeling he had suffered.
Here the power of prayer gave Jesus the power to overcome the fear of the cross!
My long waiting and then followed by miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy and a further miscarriage was very weighty. However I decided to decide that no longer will my mind be a playground for the enemy to mess up with. I was taking control through the power of the Holyspirit and I did take the steps, starting one day at a time!
You can do the same:
My daily prayer for a long time was taken from:
Romans 12 v2
Be not conformed to this world but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind that you may prove what is that good and acceptable will of God.
The only way I could transform my mind was through a constant renewal of my mind with the word of God to de-clutter my mind from:
- My negative experiences
- Ectopic pregnancy
- The doctors’ report
- My failing womb
- My collapsed fallopian tube
And I filled it with the truth in the word of God, you can do the same.
God bless you in Jesus name.